23.2.08

Sunlit and Ascending


Celine: I really believe that if there's any kind of God, he wouldn't be in any one of us - not you, not me, but just in the space in between. If there's some magic in this world, it must be in the attempt of understanding someone else, sharing something. Even if it's almost impossible to succeed, but who cares, the answer must be in the attempt.

Taken from Before Sunrise, my favourite movie of all time. A lot of people say Celine and I have the same thougths, quirks and mannerisms. Flattering, but I don't think it's true. I could never phrase myself in the same way that she does. Besides, this is a fictional piece of work, and I'm totally real. But still I wonder, is there really someone else out there who thinks the same way I do?

Who are you?

College is the best, I've made tons of friends and everything is great. So far the work and tests have been pretty ok. I'm afraid that I'll stop understanding the teachers in a while because I'm like that. I especially enjoy Math, because it's my favourite subject. And the teacher's my mentor, I feel so lucky. He likes to use 'hip' terms and keep up with the stuff we're doing, but he's already in his 60's, I think. I wish he was my grandfather. He says the most random stuff, so maybe we're already related!

While we were out shopping the other day, some douche stole my phone. Actually, I was amazed to see that everyone was in such a panic over it while I was sitting there with a calm expression. I wasn't even worried or sad, I'm so weird sometimes. But it was really sweet of them to run around like maniacs calling up everyone to see if there was anything to be done. I love friends like these.

I've been shopping tons lately to get my wardrobe into a passable state. Especially after I gave away half of it to my cousin, stuff I've had for like six years or so, and stuff that I've never worn or liked in the first place. It felt good and cleansing. I think everyone should try it. It's a bit therepeautic, and it also gives you a reason to buy more stuff. Which is always good! :D

Recently, I've been noticing something really strange. Like, before I started college, I could go out most of the time without being hit on and disturbed. But suddenly, every pervert in the world seems to have their sights set on me. When I went out with some friends the other day, it was really annoying because every ten minutes, someone would whisper 'omg that guy's totally checking you out!' to me. Now I know it's not because I'm pretty or anything, so am I just really unlucky? I wish this would stop. It's quite unnerving, and I think most girls would agree with me that it makes you want to reach for your pepper spray every five minutes when they get too close.

And is it wrong that in the middle of so much happiness, I'm really sad that some of my old friends think I've changed so much? That I'm really not who I once was and so they shouldn't bother to keep in touch anymore? I don't think it's true, if anything, I've become more of me than I've ever been. I mean, I've become more confident and less insecure about myself, but apparently those flaws were what made them comfortable enough to hang out with me. It also sounds like they're jealous of how close I am with my new friends now, like I can't have any more friends as long as they're still around. It's pretty hard to talk to them and end up with a heavy heart after each conversation. This is why my life is never perfect, someone or something always manages to screw it up.

Fingers crossed that I'm happier again in a while.

On a sidenote, happy 100th post starsofglass! I know the updating's been the absolute worst lately, but everything's really hectic right now. Hopefully I'll get myself sorted out by next month. This long post is my sorry attempt to make up for everything.

Oh and I love John Butler Trio's 'Ocean'. It's addictive - I can't stop twirling around to it like a whirling dervish. Now I wish I could play the guitar.

Bye loves!

Sunlit and Ascending


Celine: I really believe that if there's any kind of God, he wouldn't be in any one of us - not you, not me, but just in the space in between. If there's some magic in this world, it must be in the attempt of understanding someone else, sharing something. Even if it's almost impossible to succeed, but who cares, the answer must be in the attempt.

Taken from Before Sunrise, my favourite movie of all time. A lot of people say Celine and I have the same thoughts, quirks and mannerisms. Flattering, but I don't think it's true. I could never phrase myself in the same way that she does. Besides, this is a fictional piece of work, and I'm totally real. But still I wonder, is there really someone else out there who thinks the same way I do?

Who are you?

College is the best, I've made tons of friends and everything is great. So far the work and tests have been pretty ok. I'm afraid that I'll stop understanding the teachers in a while because I'm like that. I especially enjoy Math, because it's my favourite subject. And the teacher's my mentor, I feel so lucky. He likes to use 'hip' terms and keep up with the stuff we're doing, but he's already in his 60's, I think. I wish he was my grandfather. He says the most random stuff, so maybe we're already related!

While we were out shopping the other day, some douche stole my phone. Actually, I was amazed to see that everyone was in such a panic over it while I was sitting there with a calm expression. I wasn't even worried or sad, I'm so weird sometimes. But it was really sweet of them to run around like maniacs calling up everyone to see if there was anything to be done. I love friends like these.

I've been shopping tons lately to get my wardrobe into a passable state. Especially after I gave away half of it to my cousin, stuff I've had for like six years or so, and stuff that I've never worn or liked in the first place. It felt good and cleansing. I think everyone should try it. It's a bit relaxing, and it also gives you a reason to buy more stuff. Which is always good! :D

Recently, I've been noticing something really strange. Like, before I started college, I could go out most of the time without being hit on and disturbed. But suddenly, every pervert in the world seems to have their sights set on me. When I went out with some friends the other day, it was really annoying because every ten minutes, someone would whisper 'omg that guy's totally checking you out!' to me. Now I know it's not because I'm pretty or anything, so am I just really unlucky? I wish this would stop. It's quite unnerving, and I think most girls would agree with me that it makes you want to reach for your pepper spray every five minutes when they get too close.

And is it wrong that in the middle of so much happiness, I'm really sad that some of my old friends think I've changed so much? That I'm really not who I once was and so they shouldn't bother to keep in touch anymore? I don't think it's true, if anything, I've become more of me than I've ever been. I mean, I've become more confident and less insecure about myself, but apparently those flaws were what made them comfortable enough to hang out with me. It also sounds like they're jealous of how close I am with my new friends now, like I can't have any more friends as long as they're still around. It's pretty hard to talk to them and I end up with a heavy heart after each conversation. This is why my life is never perfect, someone or something always manages to screw it up.

Fingers crossed that I'm happier again in a while.

On a sidenote, happy 100th post starsofglass! I know the updating's been the absolute worst lately, but everything's really hectic right now. Hopefully I'll get myself sorted out by next month. This long post is my sorry attempt to make up for everything.

Oh and I love John Butler Trio's 'Ocean'. It's addictive - I can't stop twirling around to it like a whirling dervish. Now I wish I could play the guitar.

Bye loves!