The Reason Why

Guess who skipped school today?

That's right, I did. I'm not proud of it though, mind you. But I was up all night doing this huge report that was due today. And when I was done, I was totally wrecked. I got up in the morning just long enough to hand the report to my brother and pass out again. Genius.

When I get back from school tomorrow, there's gonna be a lot of things to do. Starting with hitting the book sale that's on. I am so not missing that. I will kill myself if I do.


Every You Every Me

Five movies I haven't watched but would really really like to

* The Shawshank Redemption
* Kill Bill
* American Beauty
* Lost In Translation
* Brokeback Mountain

I don't want to go to school tomorrow. I feel sick just thinking about it. Sigh.I wish it would just burn down. I wish I would stop thinking depressing thoughts.

I wish I could listen to The Verve's Bittersweet Symphony forever.

Well I never pray
But tonight I'm on my knees yeah
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah
I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now
But the airways are clean and there's nobody singing to me now

Hanky Panky

Let's compare my eating habits to my eating habits, shall we? Yesterday, I had a banana and a latte for breakfast. Yummy... But today, I am more than making up for it. I am currently eating my second ham and cheese sandwich, and it is so good. I know it's too late for breakfast though, so shut up. I like brunch. At this moment, life is good. In fact, it's almost perfect. Too bad the fact that I have school tomorrow is hovering over me like a shadow. I hate school!

I am so happy that my darling computer is back in my arms, even if I know it's going to have a nervous breakdown very soon. What am I talking about? Well, I'm not sure, but I think that the adaptor was fried because the computer did something to it. O_O You're right - I don't even understand myself. Haha. Loser much?

Favourite song of the moment? Seal's Kiss From A Rose. Delicious to the core. It's an oldie, but a timeless one as well. How could you not love something that has lyrics like

The more I get of you
Stranger it feels, yeah.
And now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the grey.

See? I love it! I wish someone would write me a love song. Haha. W, yours does not count. I don't even know what it's called.

I like cheese.


Leaves and Kings


I am typing this with my very own computer, and I must say, it is awesome to finally be doing so. I'm trying to get used to it again, but I don't care that I keep typing the wrong words every three seconds. I lovelovelove you, my beautiful lappy.

I'm back!


Think Zebra

I finally got my shoes! Flats from Zara, black and white. How pretty they are! I'm not going to be getting anything else for the next few years or so because the price was atrocious! I did manage to get a new top, some shorts and track pants for netball and handball. Yay!

Aww... W, I love you so. It's so nice to see you happy. It makes me feel happy too. I'm still skipping my own prom though, and you can't stop me. It's a commercialised waste of time, and I don't like the people on the prom commitee. I know you're trying your best to make me come, but it's no use. Haha. I have will-power!

And thank you to everyone else who got me addicted to Starlight once again, even though I had just gotten over it like ages ago. You don't know how hard it was to get it out of my head the first time. It's all your fault that I keep bursting into song in the classrooms!

Holding you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

My life
You electrify my life

Loads of love to W and N, who always make me feel loved, even though there's a healthy dose of abuse in our relationship. I still have the bruises, okay? I could sue you for bullying. Haha. I know I'm not into hugging people and all, but I love it when you guys hug me. N's like an older sister, and I'm never worried that W will sneak a grope or two in while he hugs me. Not like C. Eew! "But I want to hug you. I like hugging girls! Teehee." Let me say it again. Eew!

Hope you guys have a great holiday this week! If I'm looking forward to school (which I'm not, I guarantee), it would be because of you two. I love you two so much.

P.S. Thank you W, N, BB, V, Z, L, C, J and everybody else who gave me Valentines without expecting anything back. I hope my day after make-up presents were good enough. And a very merry screw you to M, who got pissed that she didn't receive as many Valentines as I did, and also that she got nothing for me. Umm, duh. You're bitchy and rude to everyone. You're lucky you got stuff at all. There was no need to bitch about me, and try to ruin the presents I got. Even J was nicer than you.

But at any rate, I had a great Valentines Day because of you guys, Thanks.


I Will Be Chasing A Starlight

Dearest W,

I want to let you know how much I love you. Even though we've only known each other for a little less than a year, I feel as if I've known you forever. You're like the brother I've always wanted, the friend I've always needed and so much more. The fact that you found it in you to tell me about your ex-boyfriend meant so much more to me than you'll ever know. It made me feel that you thought I was capable of understanding you. And I want you to know that I'll always support and love you, no matter what people might think of you. Rumours are just that, rumours. Who cares if people think you're a freak, or that we're dating or whatever. Just ignore them. I'd be proud to have a crush on you, because you're so damn nice. So don't think that you're hurting my reputation in any way. Besides, it's nice to know that I have at least one guy friend who'll I can hang out with without worrying that I'm leading him on.

You don't have to tell anyone anything. It's entirely up to you. Don't give up all your secrets to protect others. They're not worth it. You are.



The Adventure Continues

I tried looking for shoes again today, but it was hopeless. At this rate, I'll be stuck wearing sneakers forever! All is not lost, though. I got two bracelets and four pairs of socks. Gee, how exciting. But they made me happy, so whatever.

Can I just say that I regret not getting the duro dresses that my mom wanted to buy for me? Because I do! I know its good that I didn't spend any money. But, come on. When your parents want to get stuff for you, it's hard to say no without feeling a little bit sad. Especially since they were nice dresses. Sigh.

I think I'll go try on my socks now.


How To Be A Wallflower

Oh my monkey! Shoe shopping is the pits. The sales-ladies were rude. All the shoes I liked (like 2) did not come in my size. So what if I am a size 8 (shoes, ok)?! I am a member of the community, and there is no need to go like 'OMG your feet are a size 8?! That's like large. No offense, kay? Just that we don't sell shoes in that size. I mean we do, but not those shoes. Um, yeah.' Hello, what do you mean by no offense?! I am offended that I can't get proper shoes, okay? Now I have to keep looking. And I don't like shopping for shoes. Shocker! But shoe shopping is not that fun. I don't get that rush I normally do when shopping for clothes. Luckily, I purchased three scrunchies that made me very happy. I know that scrunchies are like, so not in and totally wrong right now. Whatever, okay? I hate being a slave to fashion. Makes me feel like a sheep following a huge herd. Being like everybody else; not nice.

I wish I had some kind of creativity. In any form. I must be the most un-creative person in the whole universe. I can't paint. Crayoning, yes. Watercolours, no. Gee D, go back to kindy already. I have zero skill in photography, be it taking the picture, or posing for it. Fact - I am the least photogenic person you will ever meet. I can't dance, even though I used to take ballet. Watching me try to get down is like watching a snake wiggle out of its skin. Uncomfortable to see, and even more uncomfortable to try.

What makes this worse is, I have no talent in anything remotely pertaining to maths and science as well. Give me a trigonometry question, and I'll give you the blankest look ever. None of my chemistry experiments have ever worked out. So what's left? My teachers say I might try English Literature, and aim to be a college lecturer. Great. I'm working towards being the biggest bore ever. No offense to any of you lecturers out there. It's just that when I give speeches, I myself feel like falling asleep. So yeah, I'm doomed.

P.S. I talk like a valley girl out of habit. That, and because it pisses off my English teacher, whom I know hates it when I speak like that. She thinks we all should have proper British accents and ee-nun-see-ate every single word. Get a life. Plus, I like it when people think I'm a bimbo when they hear me talk and underestimate me, only to then fall flat on their faces when they see my grades. Haha. Losers.


P.P.S. RIP Anna Nicole Smith. How sad and sudden your death was. 2006 was a rollercoaster of a ride for you. Now, it's finally come to a halt. I hope you're happy wherever you are now.

In A Day Or Two

So I went to school today, expecting the worst. I totally forgot that we had not one, but two tests to take! Oh joy. Luckily, the History exam was cancelled! Haha! But there's still English, which I could do with one eye closed. It's not that I'm really good at it or anything. It's just that the teacher doesn't give tough questions. Ever. She thinks our class is filled with 12 year olds.

Okay. So, V Day is coming up. And you know something? I hate it! Hate it with a vengeance! Oh, you might be thinking to yourself. D is such a prissy fool. She's only saying that because she never gets Valentines. And she's PMSing as well. Such a loser! She's bitter that no one likes her. Well haha. Guess what? You're right! Not.

I don't like Valentines Day because its become so commercialized and manipulative. Since when do people make deals with you about giving gifts? You give stuff to people just cause you like them. Not because you want them to give you something in return. For example, BB gets me chocolates. Then, she tells me that she got me chocolates, and that she expects something nice in return. Umm, hello... I did not ask you to get me anything. I'm happy being Valentineless, thank you very much. And there are other people who are so desperate for stuff that they make deals with everyone. Get me something and I'll get you something. Pathetic. Even worse than those who buy Valentines for themselves and sign them with 'Love Me, From Me.'

I'm sorry I sound so bitchy.

Having nothing better to do, I watched the O.C. and Gilmore Girls. I think outfits nowadays are getting both prettier and more repulsive. I'm sure you can differentiate the two. Speaking of outfits, I'm going shoe shopping tomorrow! Can you spell happy? B-A-L-L-E-T F-L-A-T-S! Ta-dah!

BB, I did get you something. I hope you like it. You'd better like it.

I hate Y. I hate Y so much that I could just burst right now. I wish she would just disappear forever. You know what, Y? You asked me if you were fat. I said no. But I lied! You're a bloated whale! A girl the size of the Goodyear blimp. Why don't you stop being such a bitch?! Stop trying to one-up me, cause that'll never happen. I wanted to be friends. I was nice to you! And you ignore me, then suddenly try to suck up to me. All while holding a knife to my back, and waiting to plunge it in at the right moment. You should just shrivel up and rot in a corner. I am a hundred times better than you'll ever be. You're just a hundred times fatter!

I'm sorry I still sound so bitchy. I have nothing against plus-sized people. I just am so fed-up of her ragging on my weight. "You are anorexic, right? I mean, why else are you so thin?" or "If I could swap bodies with someone else, you wouldn't be that person. You're like, too thin. It's not nice to look at." Umm, what??? I'm not that skinny! Picking on my size just because you hate yours - not nice! M, please go and die. I hate you too, by the way.


Happy Valentines Day when it arrives!


Narrow Sparrow Tangerine

Studied for the test, but overdid it. Not going to school, head feels like exploding. Will be sleeping the day away now. The irony of it all is that I will have to take the exam tomorrow, but will probably have forgotten everything I studied.

OK, head hurts too much. Gonna fly now. Bye!

It's Oh So Quiet

Hopefully the new layout will be up soon. This one's only temporary. It's lovely, but not for me.

We went on a class trip today, and it was awesome! Not. The highlights of our trip were Starbucks and being temporarily stranded without transport. Wow. Cam-whoring is so last century. History exam coming up! Maybe I'll fake sick tomorrow. Or not. I haven't done that in ages. Usually I'll just tell my parents I need a break. Sometimes they make me take breaks. I love my parents.

Shopping this weekend, again. Still need jeans and some decent footwear. Everyone around me must be sick of my Nikes by now. No more wedges or heels though! I've learned my lesson. I'm tall enough without. Height is a dangerous weapon. But I saw these awesome kitten heels. Ah, we'll see. Covered bands, and perhaps some other stuff? Yeah, I wish. An mp3 player is long overdue on my list though. Daddy! Gee, spoiled brat much?

Haven't heard any news about my adaptor. Mac is still pissing me off! I miss my iTunes! And I just remembered that I have some Chemistry homework. But I left my book in school. Genius. I really think I should play sick now.

On a totally random note, I haven't read anything from the Lord of The Rings books. Or watched any of the movies. But I've just bought the books, so maybe there's still hope for me yet. Wish me luck! With the History test, I mean. And Physics. Did I mention that a donkey/chimpanzee like creature teaches us this subject. He brays with laughter at the slightest thing, and annoys the heck out of everyone. Retire, please.

Update: Changed it again. Still temporary. Haha.


Easy Sunday

I'm slightly ashamed to say this, but I lovelovelove Forever21! Seriously. I could spend so much time and money in that store. Thankfully self control still exists, and I only got two tops. But I love them! I swear, all my alllowance is going into that store, and books of course.



Love, But Not Quite

I lovelovelove Salad Fingers! He's eerily creepy, yet sweetly innocent. His world is a twisted, random and dark place, but he seems to like it there, even though his only friends are his three puppets. Oh Salad Fingers, I love you so.

J says that if you like Happy Tree Friends, you'll enjoy Salad Fingers too. So go ahead, watch it. You might even like it.

On a random side note, may I say that I lovelovelove (I know, but that's really how I speak) Muse's Stockholm Syndrome? Have I said this before? Does it even matter? Yes, it's that good. I especially love it when his voice goes from its usual tenor to a high pitched moan (moan? How wrong does that sound?). It sends shivers down my spine.


Swallowed Oxygen

This is the last time I'll abandon you
And this is the last time I'll forget you

Yesterday, I found out something about W that shocked me. To be frank, he has a boyfriend. Actually, I was horrified at my reaction when I was told. My head was buzzing, and I had to sit down for a while. N gave me a hug because she said I went pale. She exagerrates a lot, so I don't know. But the way I had acted, you'd think someone had just died. I'm ashamed to say it, but if W had come along at that moment, I would have pushed him away. I was too shocked. Thankfully, he wasn't there.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not against the fact that he's not straight. It's just a blow to me because I didn't know. And we're kind of close, so that hurt me more. But I understand that it's not something that you can tell everyone, so it's cool. W doesn't know that I know, so I'm going to keep acting as if nothing's happened. Because really, nothing has happened. Maybe it's a rumour gone bad, or something like that. I don't know. I don't care. I love W to bits; he's a great person and a super nice guy. What his sexual orientation is means nothing to me. The weird part is, he's always teased about being gay, and he fends it off like it's nothing. But yes, I'm not surprised he's gay. Shocked yes, but not surprised. I know, I'm sounding super dumb here.

On a lighter note, I went shopping today, and bought nothing. That may seem like nothing to you, but I usually come back with something, even the smallest thing. Usually it's food. Yes, I am a glutton. So anyways, I wanted this black sweater. It wasn't super nice or anything, but I think it'd look good with some skinny jeans and flats. However, we were in a slight rush to go somewhere else, so I didn't say anything. Later, I told my dad that I'd seen something I liked, and that I'd tried it on. He asked me why I hadn't told him that earlier so he could have bought it for me. Sigh. It's okay, though. Then I saw this really pretty jacket, and he caught me staring at it. So he decided to go in and buy it. Thankfully I managed to stop him before he could actually do that (I know, I sound crazy). The shop is a high end designer shop, and I try not to buy my clothes at places like that. If I told that story to B, she would be slapping me for being so stupid. But I'm not like her. I don't wear my clothes only once. It's a waste of money.

Something terrible has happened. My book allowance has been cut for the time being, so I'm not going to be able to buy as many books as I want. Apparently, my dear misguided father thinks that I have too many books. Well, two bookshelves are not enough for anyone, dear father. Many of my friends have told me that I'm the first child to be told not to read too much. Once, my never-ending stream of nightmares led my parents on a tirade against books and TV. They thought my mind was too affected by everything I read and watched. A pointless accusation really, when you look at it carefully. I'm not into horror. I read mysteries the most, and the rest of my books are relatively harmless. Not chic lit, no, but not too deep or horrifying. Besides, I rarely watch television. Thank god, the nightmares stopped and they backed off. But I think they're still keeping a close eye on me.

If anyone I know is reading this right now, let's go shopping! The sales are on, and there're bargains galore! You know how to reach me. That's right. Call BB.